Round 2… Here We Go!

Round 1 seemed like a resounding success. I mean, as big a "resounding success" as you could hope for when you've got the cancer. The bloodwork numbers look good and the doctor said I don't need to come for bloodwork again before the next round of chemo. But today starts Round 2. I have a strange mixture of emotions. I'm curious about what the second round will do. (I feel pretty lucky that, aside from fatigue, I didn't have a lot of side effects after Round 1, but I also know the effects build up with each successive round.) I'm anxious about those possible side effects (and because they're pumping me full of stuff that they take out of a bag with a label that makes it look like a prop from a Zombie Apocalypse movie). And, strangely, I'm excited to knock even more of this cancer out. Rest assured, though, whatever side effects there might be, you're gonna hear about it. Let's face it, I lack the basic ability to keep my mouth shut when I'm talking, why would we expect different when I'm writing blog posts?

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