Special Days Are Harder
“Special” days are definitely harder. I can’t explain exactly why but plain old regular days are easier than the holidays and special days. I really don’t think it’s the “what if this is my last Thanksgiving?” even though that thought is in there. Maybe it’s the great time spent with loved ones and the “Happy Thanksgiving” messages and texts from friends and loved ones that remind you how great life is and how much you stand to lose if things don’t work out. But maybe it’s just that on the regular days you just go about your routine and that somehow makes cancer easier to not think about. I HATE this. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. The Christmas season is my favorite time of the year. And this year I’m going to do my best every day to keep cancer just as something I am dealing with that is royally fucking up my schedule. I’m going to try to enjoy it all. But unfortunately this year it feels less like something I’m enjoying and more like something I’m making it through. ...